Day 4 Kicked My Butt

  I was hoping day 4 would plateau or get a little easier but it was not to be. I think part of the problem is a combination of my back hurting from tweaking it while loading my luggage in my car last week and some problems with energy level being zapped because of no caffeine. The hunger seemed worse today then I hoped it would be but I did manage to struggle through it. It didn't help when I got back from work and walked through the lobby of the hotel and they had hotdogs, hamburgers, and other items that I had to walk right by on my way to my room. It was just a tough evening. The day did not do too badly but even it seemed to drag on and on as I seemed to be hungry all day. I managed to get a handle on it finally with a nice hot helping of chicken broth. It does help. Another thing I think I am going to try is buying some hot and spicy V8 and heating it up and eating it like a spicy tomato soup. I think the spicy combined with being hot would be very satisfying.
  Talking with Melody and later with my mom really helped me get through the evening. I managed to get to bedtime without faltering and that has made me very happy. So, even though the day and evening were tough, I made it through it and can look forward to tomorrow knowing that I got through a really tough day and didn't croak.
   Four tough days but four successful days have proven to me that I can make this work. I am not going to kid you, it is tough. I thought it would be tough and tough it is. At this point I don't care if the days get even tougher, I am determined that I am going to make this work and will be successful with my endeavours. Makes for some long days as the big surgery day approaches but for some reason there is a silver lining to the hunger. I am not near as nervous about the surgery as I had been leading up to this diet. I think the reason is the hunger takes my mind about being nervous about the surgery. I have slept fairly well these last couple of nights but it might be because of the total exhaustion I have felt as I went to bed. Tonight, I don't feel quite as exhausted but I also started doubling my vitamin intake using a daytime and a nighttime pill organizer to help me keep track of where I am with supplements.
   It seems to me that I am struggling with this diet but it really isn't killing me. I have had times of hunger but have been able to overcome them with proper drinks and a few sugar free jello cups and V8. The hot decaf coffee and chicken broth are both big helps. So while I think the world is coming to an end at any moment, it really isn't as bad as my mind makes it out to be. I think I need to get my mind in line with what my body is able to handle and then maybe I will see the hunger decrease and become more bearable.
   Tomorrow is Day 5 and I am going to kick it like I have the first 4. All for now. See ya. George