I had this big day of final eating planned, a special breakfast I love so much at the truckstop in Cameron followed by Pizza Hut buffet for lunch and a trip to Em Chama's, a Brazilian Churrascaria in St. Joseph to pig out on my favorite open pit meats but alas it is not to be. I am sitting in a hotel room somewhere north of Dayton, OH getting ready to hit the road for a one to two day service visit in Gypsum, OH and then back to Dayton to attend the Dayton Hamfest which is a yearly event they hold for ham radio operators from around the world. It is a fun event and I think my brother is going to join me there so we can spend a couple of days kicking around and enjoying each others company. He is a reader of my blog, so hi Ken.
So the big day has arrived, my well laid plans have gone astray, and I am thinking about how I will handle my last day of eating large. I know I want to have a nice breakfast along the way this morning, but I think I am just going to treat it like any other day and eat a couple of decent meals for lunch and dinner and call it quits. The hotel here gave me a bag of microwave popcorn that I did not use last night, so maybe I finish up the day with the season finale of Grey's Anatomy and a bag of popcorn and my favorite soda beverage which I will not be able to enjoy again for a very long time.
The nervous anticipation of tomorrow, the next two weeks, and the day of surgery have crescendod up to a somewhat record high for me. I usually don't worry much about what things are going to be, I try to be more relaxed about things most of the time. This is something new to me. I actually have butterflies as if I am going to appear on stage in front of a very large crowd and give an hour speech that I have not had time to prepare for or am standing over a winning put to take the victory at a major golf tournament. I have not felt this level of excitement and nervousness in a very long time. Today will be very long.
When tomorrow comes and I start on the new diet as a pathway to a new George, I will look back on 55 plus years of eating large and fondly remember the times I enjoyed with one of my best friends in life, food. I will however, remember those times, not with regret, but with joy in knowing that the future holds a healthier, happier, thinner me. I know all this hard work will pay off and I will be able to look back and say "how did I ever get into that condition and please do not allow it to happen again". So tomorrow the journey officially begins. Thanks for joining me on this voyage and if my posts for the next couple of weeks seem a little grumpy please forgive me and remember it's the lack of caffeine, soda, alcohol, and solid food that will be behind it. I remember another time I went through something similar, the time I went cold turkey on the smoking which led to my eventual diabetes and this entire last ten years of struggling with weight, food abuse, and diabetes. So good bye to all of that and hello to a new me. No matter how grumpy or irritable I get, I am going to be healthier and happier for it. Wish me well and hope for the best. George
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